Its all about the baby steps

This one hit home. I have no patience left, I dont care about anything really anymore, everything seems pointless right now. pointless and/or irritating

Think on This …
That primarily needed is patience, persistence and consistence.
Then we would define for the entity what we mean by the entity having patience–in an active, positive manner and not merely as a passive thing.
Taking or enduring hardships, or censure, or idiosyncrasies of others, is not necessarily patience at all. It may become merely that of being a drudge not only to self but an outlet of expression from others that may never be quite satisfying because there is no resistance.
Passive patience, to be sure, has its place; but consider patience rather from the precepts of God’s relationship to man: love unbounded is patience. Love manifested is patience. Endurance at times is patience, consistence ever is patience.

WORDS OF WISDOM:
‘No farmer ever plowed a field by turning it over in his
Mind.”…..anonymous

I finally made it to yoga again on Wednesday. I had’nt been in a few weeks due to working a bunch of overtime in preparation of christmas. I went after work to the 4:45 class. I had forgotten that wednesdays are ‘1000 intestinal exercises’ days. It was good though, I was just stoked with myself for going.

They have gotten a new head master at the the yoga center, which is a shame, I liked the other gal. The new one is cool too though, she was the main instructor at the Initial Awakening workshop I went to last month. Her name is Sue.

After class one of the instructors asked if I had received my “healing” that was included in my membership. I said I had not so we scheduled for Thursday at noon, figured I could fit it in on my lunch.

I wasn’t sure what to expect. I showed up and changed into my uniform. I was taken into one of the smaller rooms at the center and asked to lay face down. They gave me pillows to make me comfortable and placed hot pads on the back of my legs and back/shoulders. Sue came in and started rubbing my feet, then my legs, lifting them, pulling on them, more rubbing. She asked me what I wanted to get out of the healing and we talked about my shoulders, stomach problems, insomnia, etc. She continued to rub my lower back and shoulders. The shoulders and neck were really tender. Some of what she was doing hurt.. but in such a good way. Then I was asked to lay on my back. Again, pillows to make me comfortable and massaging. Every once in awhile she would ask me to breathe in and breathe out as she pressed down on different parts of my body. I was trying to concentrate on relaxing and trying to tap into her energy, my energy, what was going on. I wasn’t sure where my focus should be really. After a while, I found it hard to concentrate on anything really..I was so relaxed and the rubbing felt so good..I think I was falling in and out of sleep. I remember being self-conscious when she would shake me or lift my legs and I’d feel my fat reverberating and jiggling around. I hate that shit. Mostly though I was comfortable.

When she was done she asked me how I felt and I said ‘calm’. She then wanted to talk about my body. She said my meridian channels are constricted. I carry alot of stagnant energy in my neck and shoulders as well as my chest and upper abdomen. I’m holding on to a bunch of old energies. My kidneys are not working at optimum either apparently.
She recommended coming to class as regularly (which is included in my membership, i can go as often as i want) and to sign up for weekly healing sessions. I was just like.. um.. those are thousands of dollars and I don’t have that. She was very accomodating with payment plans and such and I do intend on trying another session.
Sue also recommended 1)taking a salt bath for three days after the healing, but only the bottom half, to promote warmth on the lower half, coolness up top. Soak for 20 mins. 2)Drink lots of water, but not after 10pm. 3)Toe tapping for three to four minutes, then three deep breaths before going to bed in loose fitting pajamas.
I’ve been slacking on my homework :/

Think on This …
For ever, day by day, is there a choice to be made by each soul. One may lead to happiness, joy; the other to confusion, to disturbing forces, to evil and to self-condemnation.
But the will is of self, else ye would not indeed be the child of the Creative and Living Force or God that ye are; but as an automaton.
Then exercise thyself, and bring that to pass in thy experience that will create for thee the environ of helpful hopefulness in the experience day by day.

Edgar Cayce

Remember, the soft word turns away wrath and it brings joy, the kind word as ye have found in thine own experience oft has made the day much brighter for thee. Make many days brighter for others and in making them more and more in attune with love, patience, longsuffering, gentleness and kindness, ye will make for thyself a surety in those things that take hold on peace, harmony and joy. These should be a part of thine experience ever.

oh.. and to those that I have not called recently…. my long distance phone service has apparently been shut off

the situation will be rectified by the end of the month, but probably not beforehand.

i am still able to receive long distance calls though

edit:
actually.. i may not even be getting calls at this point.
i logged on and made a payment.. which sucks.. cuz now i have to pay rent late and spread it between two paychecks and i wanted the next one to be all about Christmas.. but really.. i don’t think it could have been avoided at this point.
*sigh

Think on This …
But do not put off today that which will bring hope and help to the mind of another . . . Those things that make for the putting off become a joy never fulfilled. Use, then, the experiences from day to day as the basis, and these will grow under thine very effort; surprising even to self as to the joy that comes from same, and gradually taking shape to become a joy to self and blessings to others.

Edgar Cayce Reading 877-9

Lego’s Danish founder Ole Kirk Christiansen named the famous bricks in 1934 by fusing two Danish words, “leg” and “godt” meaning “play well.”

On November 24th in the wee hours, Jillyfresh did a tarot card reading for me. This was about the third time, all the other times I wished I had written it down or could remember them later. This time I wrote it down as we went along.

As I shuffled the cards around I tried to concentrate on what the upcoming month or so, the rest of this year, would be like. What’s coming up, what should I be aware of, etc.

She started me off with the Fool.
The Fool represents one beginning a journey or new life.

The first card laid down would pertain to my general circumstances or current situation. This card was a Seven of Pentacles which represents Profit or lack there of.
Good return / Caution in Finances.

The second card would pertain to any circumstances that may help or hinder my current situation. This card was a Six of Wands (Inverted) which represents Excellent News.
Fear of success, lack of inspiration, not living up to self, fear inhibits positive results.

The third card was to represent what is hoped to be achieved by the current situation. This card was a Seven of Wands (Inverted) which represents Valor.
Indecisiveness will bring defeat. hesitation is the last thing needed right now, stand firm in accomplishments. determined to succeed.

The fourth card was supposed to reveal subconscious forces, hidden feelings and apprehensions. This card was a Four of Pentacles which represents Stability.
Comfort, practical security. Stability has its rewards, financial problems will have a successful outcome.

The fifth card pertained to the immediate past. This card was a Ten of Swords which represents Oppression/Ruin.
Social & Financial difficulties, self-pity and doubt, disassociation from those closest, betrayal and mistrust, pain at the realization that motivation and ideas are neither correct nor creatively powerful in a positive manner. Failure can be a catalyst for growth when you face your weaknesses and change them.

The sixth card represented any influencing circumstances in the immediate future. This card was a Knight of Pentacles(Inverted) which means Potentiality.
There will be a dishonest young man or girl who will at first seem helpful but will bring trouble.
OR
I have outmoded values and need to learn new approaches to practical life situations. search knowledge to obtain goals.

The seventh card was a Ace of Cups which represents Fertility and is supposed to indicate what my likely behaviour will be or what my real feelings and attitudes are towards the situation.
Abundance in personal relationships. Celebration on the horizon. Possible relationship(according to jillyfresh), time of joy and contentment.

The eigth card represents my home or immediate environment and what kind of support I can look to get from there. This card was a Queen of Wands (Inverted) which represents Inspiration.
Obstacle to success..either a person or situation. Exhert care in finances/ career. Overbearing in personality and selfish in aims.

The ninth card is supposed to reveal my wishes and fears, my emotional attachment to the situation. This card was the Worldwhich represents Mastery.
Acheived state of completion, Sense of self esteem established on progress in outer and inner growth. Achieving goals giving self-worth.

The tenth card is supposed to indicate the probable outcome or result. This card was the King of Swordsrepresenting Mental Strength and Power.
There will be a man of authority with a certain amount of control in my life. He can be helpful, protective, give advice but then uncomprimising and authoritative. He is unpredictable, only benefiting me if he can benefit himself as well.
OR
There will be a very challenging situation where there will be an abuse of power and forced compromise. The power of the situation will be greater than my own. Be Careful.

This is a description of the Chinese Ox Horoscope I found the other day. I’m an ox and though I don’t give much weight to horoscopes, astrology, etc outside of a mild interest, I felt like when I read it, I identified somewhat.

The Chinese Ox is sturdy and steadfast, a born leader and a great practical thinker. You are ruled by your head and achieve through hard graft.
Unlike the western image of a bull in a china shop, the Chinese Ox is more refined, and you have a fine eye for the smaller details.

Oxen are honorable creatures and, although you can be dogmatic and traditional in your approach to situations, you have a strong moral code. You do not respond well to change and can tend to be obstructive if others force situations upon you.

You detest stress, preferring to work or think at your own pace but you are swift to judge. Oxen generally keep their views to themselves, though, and you are more likely to hold silent grudges than air your grievances as you hate public arguments.

You are loyal and protective of those dearest to you and would rather work out problems in private, even if that takes time, than move on to new pastures.

The most compatible match for an Ox is the Snake or the Rooster.